I drowned here
Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning within myself. From the outside you’d see a hollow shell of a man and from the inside I’m literally gasping for breath. It is this feeling of being in all of the chaos in which every thought is taken to be part of reality. Now, I sit and look within to find that there is somehow peace here. Where did that calm arise from, when just moments ago I was drowning from within? That pure space arose when I detached myself from the main source of chaos, which is the mind. Being an internet fiend, I often get lost within the confines of this information storm which feels like an internal flood of energy that overwhelms me and carries me away from my natural place, leaving me gasping for breath and powerless. Sometimes it’s hard to see when the reality you’re living in at any given moment is not an objective reality, but actually a conditioned environment which your mind has constructed for you in reaction to events in your external world. If you’re living ...